33 weeks (this is taking forever...)

How far along? 33 weeks and I am beginning to think I will be pregnant forever.

How big are the twins? Well most apps are beginning to agree with one another and claiming that I hold two pineapples in my poor stretched belly. Pineapples are big and heavy if you ask me!  

Total weight gain? 25 pounds. Holy mama, 4 lbs in the last three weeks has been quite a transition. Let's address clothing shall we?

Maternity clothes? I feel ridiculous most of the time! Maternity clothes look like pre-pregnancy clothes on me if you really want to know. They totally tent on the bottom instead cutting in all cute. My belly is usually poking out of the bottom of shirts even and I need to get some good yoga pants to just wear everyday for the next 5 weeks. Even Matt's shirts are starting to barely fit me. 

Wedding ring on or off? Off and I worry that it'll never fit again! (I guess I feel quite dramatic today).

Sleep? Well lets just talk about this, shall we? My lovely husband decided to leave me for the past two weeks!! Both of them were for very legitimate reasons mind you but the babies wanted to make his exit as dramatic as possible I guess. So the night before the first week he would be gone I ended up going to the hospital because of severe heartburn. Pathetic right? Well what happened exactly is that I have been on Zantac for most of this last trimester and it's been great. But taking a pill twice a day has been an adjustment so on Sunday night I took my pill almost 5 hours later than I was supposed to. That night I had indulged in almost everything in the no-no heartburn list, including chocolate, and I was feeling quite remorseful. I couldn't lay down without putting myself in a lot of pain so I was propped up trying to wait for the drugs to kick in when I had to run to the toilet and vomit. Throwing up from heartburn is not completely new to me so I cleaned myself up and went back to lay down. I remember thinking in the dark that my vomit looked kind of weird but chose not to stress just yet. Then an hour later when I finally tried to lay down, I again had to bolt to the bathroom again. That's when I noticed that it looked like I was throwing up coffee grounds. I was so confused. I hadn't eaten anything of that consistency - and decided to Google it. I guess coffee grounds is the exact description of when you are throwing up blood. At this point I was still in a lot of pain, 31 weeks pregnant and thought it would be really stupid to just ignore it so I called my clinic. The nurse transferred me to the on-call doctor and it just so happened to be my own lovely doctor, Dr. Bair. He said he wanted me to check into labor and delivery to have the babies monitored but was sure, like I was, that I had just damaged my esophagus pretty bad. So my poor husband who had to leave for the airport at 5:30am went with me to the hospital at 1:30am. The babies were completely fine and I ended up being prescribed Prilosec for the rest of my pregnancy (strong stuff!) but never got to sleep. So then I played nomad for the next two weeks and slept either at my parents or my in-laws so that I wasn't alone. Didn't sleep super great but now that Matt is back home and I am sleeping in my own bed it is SO MUCH BETTER. 

Genders? Luke and Leia :D Here are shirts that I made with my mom for Matt and I to wear to the Star Wars premiere this weekend!

Best moment this week? So I'm going to change this to important moment this week because of what happened at my 32 week appointment. I got to talk to my doctor a lot about how long these babies are really going to be in me, what to expect if we have a c-section, and the few contractions I have been having. So I can't remember if I talked about Leia switching from breech position to transverse at my last ultrasound, but she did. What that means is that after Luke is born there is a lot higher risk that she would not be in a good position to come out vaginally and we would have to do an emergency c-section. So then I would recover from both a vaginal delivery and a c-section and I don't know about you, but that is not on my wish-list this Christmas. If Leia is still transverse at my 34 (next week!) ultrasound, we will go ahead and schedule a c-section for January 25th-ish. They of course will do another ultrasound the morning of the c-section again and if she has moved back breech, we will be induced for a vaginal delivery. I feel really good about this option and I honestly just want to do whatever is safest to get these precious babies here!

Symptoms? I had a couple days during the 30/31st weeks that I could tell I was pushing it a little bit. I am measuring 43 weeks pregnant so bending down is pretty annoying but I was still doing it and maybe walking a little too much. I was starting to get contractions that would stay for a little longer than both my doctor and I were comfortable with so I am officially on "modified bed rest." AKA be lazy and try to sit down as much as possible. It was so nice to be with my family these last two weeks and I got totally pampered at both my parents and my in-laws.

Food cravings? Pizza. Qdoba burritos. Taco Bell. Pretty much all fast food. OH my goodness and soda. All I want is soda. :(

Food aversions or anything making you sick? It's hard to actually eat more than one main meal a day. I just want to drink my calories in the form of soda and then have one big meal. But that is NOT HEALTHY at all and so I'm trying really hard to be good. 

Labor signs? Contractions and silly Luke is sitting SO LOW. My doctor didn't want to do a cervix check because if I am dilated at all, it could potentially put me into labor. So we will for sure be trying to catch a look at my cervix at my ultrasound next week but I have a feeling that with all this bed rest and not moving it has helped. Before taking it easy it almost felt like I had a tampon "up there" that was about to fall out all the time and there was so much pressure. Luckily that is gone now!

Belly button in or out? Flat. Flat as a freaking pancake. Nothing is making a mark in shirts necessarily but I think these next few weeks will definitely push it out. Darn it all.

Stretch marks? OH yes. And I still get itchy!  

Movement? These little turkeys are treating mom's uterus like a jungle gym. I was told there was going to be a point where the movement decreased because they ran out of room but I don't think I believe them. The best part of the movement though is that there is always something for someone to feel. All of my siblings and parents have felt the twins doing crazy stunts so that has been way fun actually.

What I miss? Being able to sit comfortably for any period of time. Church is the worst because I feel so improper. My belly is so low I can't sit with my legs closed and I'm sure that's exactly what everyone wants to be looking at is a huge pregnant lady with her legs open.  

What I'm looking forward to? Making it to my last baby shower! Haha it is scheduled for the 2nd of January so I will be 35 almost 36 weeks pregnant. That just seems so far away to me so once I get there and survive it, I will feel like I am officially ready.

Happy or moody most of the time? I'm a grouch. I'll admit it. Matt and I will have one miscommunication and then I am just so moody and can't shake it for a while.